Fudgey, you will be sorely missed.

Sorry for being away for a long time. With Fudge’s passing, and with him being the heart of this blog, I’ve found it difficult to visit the blog, let alone to write again.

Before everything happened, I have spoken to a number of friends about how it feels like to lose a pet. After all, I’ve lost 2 before – Nikki and Jordan. I used to say…it is not as difficult as it seems. When you see your pet old and suffering, seeing them live by  the day, where some days are better or worse than others, and hearing them sometimes whine because they found it hard to stand or they felt pain, you’ll feel some sort of “relief” or even “happiness” when they go. Of course, we all grief, but, all dogs go to heaven and we know they’ll be in a better place. However, I recently realized that this only holds true when a pet goes in its old age. Never would I have expected that I would be experiencing the otherwise with Fudge.

Fudge passed away about 2 months ago. He was 8 years and and a half  before he passed away. Everything happened in a blur – from the time I noticed a distention, to bringing him into emergency just because i read about the danger of bloating (which turned out to not be a bloat), a CT scan, the many guesses on what the diagnosis is and finally, the diagnosis. It was a roller coaster journey, for Jon, my family, and I, with moments intertwined with bouts of hope and sadness. We thought that…if we put him on a strict diet and exercise routine, that we will survive the odds. The doctor had told us about 6 months. Little did we know that Fudge would be around for just about a week.

Now that it has been 2 months, everything still seems quite fresh. Nothing much has changed, except an emptiness and unusual quietness in the room at night (Fudge was a loud sleeper!) – it was hard to fall asleep. Despite the numerous encouragements I received (which I am very grateful for) like “at least he didn’t have to suffer too much” or “he has had a wonderful life” or “he will be looking out for you from above”, I guess I am selfish and found it hard to accept things and move on.

But in times like this, I guess I have learnt to find an inner strength. Life is hard and hardly ever fair. At the same time, it is important not to forget that while we may have lost something, there are still so many other things in our lives that we should treasure. Live in the moment, not in the past.

*moving on*

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my canon t2i rebel is here!

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I always had the secret desire to get a dslr. It never really made sense for me to invest in one since I don’t take photos too often but since I started this blog, I found every reason to get one. Coincidentally, my brother decided that he wanted to upgrade and I decided to buy his dslr over from him! I enjoy taking photos of things I love, but am not super interested in photography per se. I gain a lot of satisfaction in taking high resolution and clear photos, but definitely do not find much pleasure when I try to delve too much into the technology in itself.

I am a very lucky girl to be blessed with such a beautiful home and a great place to practice my photography. I enjoy taking photos of my mom’s garden as there are always flowers in full bloom.

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Not to mention, I love taking photos of the animals. I sometimes think that they are so lucky because they never really have a bad look or a bad expression. I many a time marvel at the fact that they look so perfect but I’m sure that if they could talk, they would complain about how “unglam” they look in most of the photos, just like us unsatisfied humans!

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diy dog leash

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I’ve always had a really tough time buying the right leash for Fudge. Since leashes are really…nothing more than a piece of material with a snap hook to me, I don’t fancy paying $20 for a simple leash. I have walked into a pet store at least 10 times with the intention to buy a leash, only to find myself walking out without buying anything.

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diy enamel paint projects

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I’ve been wanting to do an oil based enamel paint project for a while now (by a while, I mean like…6 months? :P) and I finally got round to doing it! I was originally inspired by Painted Flowerpots by Martha Stewart and I always imagine how these bright colored paints will bring such a different vibe to an outdoor terrace, a garden, or  even a living room.

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a sunday picnic!

I’ve always talked about wanting to organize a picnic and I finally got down to it! We wanted to go someplace quiet and decided to go to a large grassy area behind my sister’s school. My sister and I prayed harddd the whole day hoping it won’t rain and the weather turned out perfect! Actually, we were so excited that we just spent the whole day talking about what we were going to do at the picnic, lol.

I realized that I didn’t take any pictures of our picnic set-up – how could I! I think we were more excited at eating the food and playing with the animals – yes, we brought Fudge, Toffee and Joy!

Super awesome shepherd’s pie made by Annabel (aka Bel). The picture below absolutely does no justice to the awesomeness of this dish. The 6 of us ended up finishing three-quarters of this humongous serving of shepherd’s pie! Bel also made chicken wings (see the next picture).

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fudgey wudgey

I came home from work pretty late today – last to leave the office on a Friday night! Ah wells…

I decided to give myself a treat today with… 3 chocolate chip cookies!!!! Fudge wanted a treat too but… you can’t eat chocolate, Fudge! Whenever Fudge begs for food, I always think that he goes through the same three stages:

(sorry, the photos are not good quality – took them with my iPhone and thought its too cute not to share!)

1. Mmmmmm smells good! What have you got there? Ohhhhhhh… chocolate chip cookies! Can I have some?

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